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Monday, December 27, 2010

End of 2010

Been neglecting this blog for quite some time... Reason being? I just couldn't find the motivation. It has been a damn bad year.. But then, we are approaching the end of 2010. Me myself has just gotten a new job, so let's just hope that we throw all the sueh 2010 behind with 2010 and look forward to 2011 with all the huat.

Happy New Year to everyone!!!

Tuesday, April 20, 2010

I WILL SURVIVE

NOOOOO!!! I WILL NOT GO DOWN WITHOUT A FIGHT!!! I WILL SURVIVE!!! I WON'T GIVE UP NO MATTER WHAT!!!

Force..

i think there is a force out there.. this force, step by step, is bringing me nearer to the final destination....

no hope..
no chance..
not surviving..

Friday, March 5, 2010

Death is the Only Option

It all starts without warning, a loved one or trusted authority thrusts a sharp dagger slicing deep into the child's innocent heart shattering its safe world of love with betrayal. A reflex pulls the heart away as the first painful emotion brings a fear of death and insecurity. Stunned in disbelief the child's mind scrambles to make sense of the puncture the heart has just sustained. Confused and unable to comprehend the assault, the child accepts full responsibility. Year after year the pattern continues, as trust becomes a distant memory.

Deep within solitude and far from discovery the mirror of the buried heart reflects failure and loneliness. The mind caught off guard responds with a legion of proof the inner voice is a lie. As time passes and silent to all others, the heart's once small whisper increases to a scream the mind can not suppress. Plunging into a darkness of conviction and despair a knowing of the failure permeates the body. Shocked by the inner betrayal, a rage is created that will not relent. Over and over you seek for the one to blame, but none can be found. Through desperate fear the mind has the solution. You are the one to blame.

The now silent heart slowly dies unaware of its gradual fate as despair trickles into the cold voids where the dream once lived. Day after day the darkness kills thoughts before they transform into action bringing a paralysis to life. Moving deeper and deeper into hopelessness, the childhood dream no longer exists. Replaced with a cold hatred that the song of lies was ever heard.

Death is the only escape and love is a lie.

Wednesday, January 6, 2010

FINAL DESTINATION

i m so tired............................................................

perhaps, this is the only way out.............

someone said it before, this is a way that no U-Turn is allowed.

i know this is the only way