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Monday, December 27, 2010

End of 2010

Been neglecting this blog for quite some time... Reason being? I just couldn't find the motivation. It has been a damn bad year.. But then, we are approaching the end of 2010. Me myself has just gotten a new job, so let's just hope that we throw all the sueh 2010 behind with 2010 and look forward to 2011 with all the huat.

Happy New Year to everyone!!!

Tuesday, April 20, 2010

I WILL SURVIVE

NOOOOO!!! I WILL NOT GO DOWN WITHOUT A FIGHT!!! I WILL SURVIVE!!! I WON'T GIVE UP NO MATTER WHAT!!!

Force..

i think there is a force out there.. this force, step by step, is bringing me nearer to the final destination....

no hope..
no chance..
not surviving..

Friday, March 5, 2010

Death is the Only Option

It all starts without warning, a loved one or trusted authority thrusts a sharp dagger slicing deep into the child's innocent heart shattering its safe world of love with betrayal. A reflex pulls the heart away as the first painful emotion brings a fear of death and insecurity. Stunned in disbelief the child's mind scrambles to make sense of the puncture the heart has just sustained. Confused and unable to comprehend the assault, the child accepts full responsibility. Year after year the pattern continues, as trust becomes a distant memory.

Deep within solitude and far from discovery the mirror of the buried heart reflects failure and loneliness. The mind caught off guard responds with a legion of proof the inner voice is a lie. As time passes and silent to all others, the heart's once small whisper increases to a scream the mind can not suppress. Plunging into a darkness of conviction and despair a knowing of the failure permeates the body. Shocked by the inner betrayal, a rage is created that will not relent. Over and over you seek for the one to blame, but none can be found. Through desperate fear the mind has the solution. You are the one to blame.

The now silent heart slowly dies unaware of its gradual fate as despair trickles into the cold voids where the dream once lived. Day after day the darkness kills thoughts before they transform into action bringing a paralysis to life. Moving deeper and deeper into hopelessness, the childhood dream no longer exists. Replaced with a cold hatred that the song of lies was ever heard.

Death is the only escape and love is a lie.

Wednesday, January 6, 2010

FINAL DESTINATION

i m so tired............................................................

perhaps, this is the only way out.............

someone said it before, this is a way that no U-Turn is allowed.

i know this is the only way

Tuesday, December 8, 2009

Desperado...

never been so bad before... i think i have got the MIDAS touch right now. differences are that everything that i touch will become SHIT instead of gold.. seems like i have failed in everything... what will become of me?? will i get my LIFE back??? i really dunno........ is there a god? i doubt so...

Monday, December 7, 2009

The girl that wrote bout sex in her blog

The 20 year old Singapore’s Poly girl known as Shila, is the owner of the now deleted blog “Shila’s Voice – Breaking the Silence”.
The citizen journalism website, STOMP, recently published an article from a STOMPer revealing some of the stuff which she probably shouldn't have written about on her blog

In an email to STOMP on 30 Nov 09, the STOMPer AK said, “I came across this blog, apparently belonging to a 20-year-old Singaporean girl from a polytechnic, who openly writes about her active casual sex life, even talking about having a foursome with her partner and another couple… Find it ironic that she writes in her blog about how she knows she has disappointed her parents, yet she posted her family photos in there, for all to see.”

Many attempts by local netizens to uncover her blog were unsuccessful as it appeared that she posted those articles more than one year ago, and had recently deleted her blog when she got STOMPed. The deleted blog’s original URL is: http://shila-lov3rgal.blogspot.com/

Wednesday, December 2, 2009

A Tribute to Teoh Boon Hock, A True Malaysian

By Teo Nie Chingeditor@thenutgraph.com

THERE are some people whom we have known for a long time yet it feels like we only met them yesterday. And then there are some people that we only just met, yet it feels like we have known them for a long time. My friendship with Teoh Beng Hock fell into the second category.

I got to know Beng Hock during the March 2008 general election. To be honest, the first impression he gave me was that he was rather cool and unfriendly. But that impression was soon overtaken by his support and convictions.

I was still a newbie in politics then despite being a DAP candidate for the Serdang parliamentary seat. At that time, I was unfamiliar with the problems Kajang and Serdang residents faced. Beng Hock, who was an experienced reporter, immediately recognised my problem. He pulled me aside during one ceramah and gave me a run down on every problem in my constituency, as quickly as he could during the time we had. It was then that I realised that the tall and thin reporter may have looked unfriendly, but the flame for justice burned bright and deep in him.

Hard work, low salary

When I met Beng Hock again after the general election, he had already become political secretary to Ean Yong Hian Wah, the Seri Kembangan assemblyperson from the DAP. We would meet up often after that.

We always discussed political and constituency-related issues. Sometimes, we could quickly think up of solutions for these issues but at other times, we were unable to because of various limitations. Then Beng Hock would tell me, "Nie Ching, Pakatan Rakyat (PR) must take over the federal government. State government's power is too limited. Only with the federal government power in hand can we come up with radical changes."

A political assistant's work is normally tiring. These assistants usually have long working hours, including during the weekends. When we were organising an event or activity, Beng Hock regularly had to work overtime until 3am or 4am at the service centre.

But despite these long hours, an assistant's salary is not high. We used to ask him all the time when he would marry his girlfriend. His joking rejoinder would always be: "First, you tell my boss to raise my salary. The salary working for the state government is so low, how to get married?"

Steadfast

Beng Hock witnessed many injustices as a journalist. Despite the low salary, and his family's protest and their advice to him to change profession, he remained steadfast and chose to stay on with the DAP. Part of this, I know, was because as a journalist, he witnessed many injustices and unreasonable incidents which caused him much anger.

In fact, he chose to join the DAP and to become Hian Wah's assistant because of the frustrations he faced as a journalist such as the limitations on the freedom of information. He used to tell me that his biggest ambition as a political aide was to cleanse Serdang of the Barisan Nasional's influence and make it a safe seat for the DAP, placed under the PR's governance. It was that vision that made him willing to endure the long hours to continue serving the people.

This was who Beng Hock was — a responsible young man full of ambitions.

To Beng Hock

On 30 Aug 2009, a day before Independence Day, a group of members from Pusat Perkhidmatan DAP Serdang, together with Serdang's DAP Socialist Youth and I, went to Malacca just to pay our last respects to you on the sixth day of the seven-day prayers for you.

Your family was still in deep sorrow, especially your mother. You had just left us for a month and a half, and yet she seemed ten years older than her age. Your brother told us she lived in tears every single day, no matter what she was doing; whether eating, washing or ironing. And that was what I saw as well, a mother with nothing left but devastation.

I hugged her tightly to comfort her but it did not help. She did not want anything but her son. She kept murmuring to herself, "Why did he walk in healthy but could not walk out from there?" "How could they do this to him?" "You promised to come home by Friday, how could you leave like that on Thursday?"

I know that deep down inside her heart, she is still hoping that her son will come home one day to dine with her. But that day will not ever come.

During our 52nd Independence Day this year, instead of distributing the national flags on the streets like I did last year, I wrote about you instead, to commemorate you, your spirit and soul, everything that you did to contribute to your country.

I can imagine the kind of conversation we would be having now, if only you were still here. I can even predict your reactions and expressions. However, you are but a memory now.

There are some people whom we only know for a short time, yet he or she becomes part of our lives. Beng Hock died for a better Malaysia for all Malaysians. It is time for us to carry on the work he left behind

Tuesday, December 1, 2009

is this the end??

really very tired....

Thursday, November 26, 2009

Sometimes, it just feels like we are barely holding on


Wednesday, November 25, 2009

Painting needed

I need help on my flat!!!! I am moving out on the rental flat and the owner is complaining that the wall is too dirty (i am sure all those stains are from the prevoius tenant) and he wants us to repaint the hall for him. Any cheap painting company to advise? Do let me know. I need it urgently!!!

Monday, November 16, 2009

Desperate

Damn... nothing seems right these days... family, relationship, monies, careers, friendship...

Damn.. i must get out of all these shits.....

what should i do......

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Tuesday, October 27, 2009

Monopoly? It's a Marketing Strategy from Macdonald!!!

Do you know that Singapore Macdonald have this so called Instant Win with Mononopoly promotion? It's really a very clever marketing strategy.. It makes you thought that it's very easy to win. All you need to do is to eat at Macdonald and to get the game piece, stick it on the Gameboard and if you have those that in the same position, eg. Bishan, Ang Mo Kio and Toa Payoh, you'll instantly win a ToysRus $200 voucher. If you get Marina Bay and Sentosa Cove, you'll instantly win $50,000 in cash.

It seems like a good catch, isn't it? But, from what I see, I suspect that in whole Singapore, there is only ONE game piece of Sentosa Cove and many many many game pieces of Marina Bay. This way, those that get Marina Bay will thought that they'll win $50,000 cash just by finding one game piece of Sentosa Cove. They didn't realise that there is only ONE Sentosa Cove. They will keep patronise Macdonald to look for the missing piece of Sentosa Cove.

Don't believe me? I am shortage of Toa Payoh, Joo Chiat, Sentosa Cove and Scotts Road. Ask anyone that have participate in this frantic search for game piece and they will tell you they lack these pieces too! Come on, the chance of winning is actually just like 4D or Toto, ONE IN A MILLION!!!!

Monday, October 12, 2009

Update!!!

It has been long since I updated my blog... i have some personal problem myself... guess if i could go thru it, will continue to update regularly next month.....

Thursday, August 27, 2009

Why You Should Be Careful While Using Facebook

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These Children Should Be Striked By Lighting

"SIN Chew Daily reported that an elderly couple in Singapore who gave up their duplex to their son ended up homeless after they were chased out of the house by the ungrateful offspring.
The couple now call the staircase of a school their home.

The man, who was named as Lim, was a manager before he retired. He had a son and a daughter who lived in Jurong, Singapore.

Relating his ordeal to a secretary of the school, Lim said he and his wife decided to give their duplex home to their son as a wedding gift about two years ago.

The couple thought that they could live in the house with their son. He, however, decided to sell the property for RM960,000 to buy another condominium. Lim and his wife were then sent off to live with the daughter.

After a year, the daughter decided that they were no longer welcome and banned them from touching her children.

The couple could not enter the house after their daughter changed the locks to the house."

Thursday, August 20, 2009

Weight Lost Plan

A man calls a company and orders their 5-day, 10 lb. weight loss program. The next day, there's a knock on the door and there stands before him a voluptuous, athletic, 19 year old babe dressed in nothing but a pair of Nike running shoes and a sign around her neck. She introduces herself as a representative of the weight loss company. The sign reads,

"If you can catch me, you can have me."

Without a second thought, he takes off after her. A few miles later huffing and puffing, he finally gives up. The same girl shows up for the next four days and the same thing happens. On the fifth day, he weighs himself and is delighted to find he has lost 10 lbs. as promised.

He calls the company and orders their 5-day/20 pound program. The next day there's a knock at the door and there stands the most stunning and beautiful woman he has ever seen in his life. She is wearing nothing but Reebok running shoes and a sign around her neck that reads,

"If you catch me you can have me."

Well, he's out the door after her like a shot. This girl is in excellent shape and he does his best, but no such luck. So for the next four days, the same routine happens with him gradually getting in better and better shape. Much to his delight on the fifth day when he weighs himself, he discovers that he has lost another 20 lbs. as promised.

He decides to go all out and calls the company to order the 7-day/50 pound program.

"Are you sure?" asks the representative on the phone. "This is our most rigorous program."

"Absolutely," he replies, "I haven't felt this good in years."

The next day there's a knock at the door; and when he opens it he finds a huge muscular guy standing there wearing nothing but pink running shoes and a sign around his neck that reads,

"If I catch you, you are mine!!!"

He lost 63 pounds that week !!!

Monday, August 17, 2009

Husband for Sale!

A store that sells husbands has just opened in Mumbai, where a woman may go to choose a husband.Among the instructions at the entrance is a description of how the store operates. You may visit the store ONLY ONCE!There are six floors and the attributes of the men increase as the shopper ascends the flights.There is, however, a catch. .... You may choose any man from a particular floor, or you may choose to go up a floor, but you cannot go back down except to exit the building!

So, a woman goes to the Husband Store to find ahusband...

On the first floor the sign on the door reads:
Floor 1 - These men have jobs and love the Lord.

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The second floor sign reads:
Floor 2 - These men have jobs, love the Lord, andlove kids.

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The third floor sign reads:
Floor 3 - These men have jobs, love the Lord, lovekids, and are extremely good looking. " Wow," she thinks, but feels compelled to keepgoing.

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She goes to the fourth floor and sign reads:
Floor 4 - These men have jobs, love the Lord, lovekids, are drop- dead good looking and help with the housework."Oh, mercy me!" she exclaims, "I can hardly standit!"

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Still, she goes to the fifth floor and sign reads:
Floor 5 - These men have jobs, love the Lord, love kids, are drop- dead gorgeous, help with the housework, and have a strong romantic streak.

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She is so tempted to stay, but she goes to the sixth floor and the signreads:
Floor 6 - You are visitor 4,363,013 to this floor. There are no men on this floor.This floor exists solely as proof that women are impossible to please.Thank you for shopping at the Husband Store. Watch your step as you exit the building, and have a nice day!

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Tuesday, August 4, 2009

Newspaper or Novel?

I am damn pissed with one of the Malay language newspaper in Malaysia.

It is suppose to be a newspaper in Malaysia but I guess this newspaper has got an identity crisis. It doesn't even sure if it is a newspaper or a novel. Starting from article instigating to murder a fellow MP , calling Teoh Boon Hock's son a bastard and today instigating fellow Malay against other races, it has gone from bad to worst.

Enough is enough. Your responsibility is to report news, not to spurt rubbish. I dare to say, this newspaper plays a huge part in the strain relationship among races in Malaysia nowaday. Do we still want to support them? I do support the government if they decided to use ISA against the editor of this newspaper. In actual fact, based on what they have published, the government should have do something against them, but they just gave them a light warning.

Play your part, let's all Malaysia blogger start an article on this. Let them know that we mean business and we are not like the government that will let them go with just a light warning (I don't even know if our DPM really warned them). This is what we call the power of blogger

Monday, August 3, 2009

Who Is She? 正了吧

Found this while I was surfing the net today. Such a beauty. Anyone know who is this girl? I guess it's from some online game. Is she real?